I thought that I would have doubts. I expected the peace to leave me, the certainty to fade. But it has not. I have had fears, certainly, but never doubts. I know that this is the right course. Evidently, though, I am the only one. That is not fair. Orison, Eburnean, and Inca have stood solidly with me this entire time, and they are not the only ones. Guardians I have only met briefly, and even some I have never…
There are many things I have to confess with this entry, but here is the first: I have thought of this option before. I did not want to admit it, because I never believed it a possibility. But it has run through my mind more than once, and more than once I have wished that it could become a reality. Now that it has…but I am well ahead of myself. My second confession: I was desperate to avoid the end…
This morning, I was watching Freya hurrying on her way to work—she was running late because Merry had escaped out the door when she went to get the paper—when I felt a presence behind me. I turned and there was Zezette, looking at me with sorrow in her aura. “May we talk for a moment, Asa’el?” she asked me. “Of course.” I was not particularly surprised to see her. Several others of my seniors have been concerned about me in…
I have been awarded a sabbath. One week to spend on Earth, time that I can fill with whatever I choose. It began as soon as I gave my consent to the ending of all my assignments. My last sabbath I used to explore the world and all its beauties. This one, I have been more concerned with the people I have come to know. I have said my goodbyes to my charges. I visited Hannah, Jack, and Lily over…
I had all but given up on seeing Anteros, but this evening, when I went down to visit Freya, I found him there, standing in her living room not far from where she had dozed off on her sofa. I was so astonished that I forgot to greet him and said rather stupidly, “She will have strange dreams with you here.” He smiled at me. “She will have no dreams, but will wake feeling rested and refreshed.” I remembered my…
It has been so long since an angel has challenged the decision of a senior that I had to ask fourteen different brothers and sisters before I found someone who knew. But I have done it. I have appealed the decision to end my time with Freya, requesting the consideration of Anteros himself. Danit is distressed by this, and Zezette is angry, but I think neither one of them is surprised. How could they be? And I find myself by…
They want to take me off Freya’s case. I am sorry to be blunt, but I can think of no clever opening for this post. I can only say what has been screaming in my mind ever since Danit first said it. Well, perhaps not that long, because I did not understand at first. Danit met with me to discuss my charges, and she told me that she felt it was time for a fresh start. “They are all in…