Danit is concerned that I am overworking myself. She has offered me a brief sabbath, but I refused. The timing is very bad—in just a few weeks, the new cupids will begin their own work, and they are busy in heaven finishing their training and their preparations, so there are few who are available to cover for my absence. Danit has herself offered to watch over my assignments for me, which is an offer I find very touching. Was it proud of me to have declined? I truly do believe that I myself will serve my people better, having been with them this entire time. Although Danit too knows them well, she has not seen what I have seen, felt what I have felt. In any case, I would not be able to rest peacefully, knowing that my assignments are still struggling.
It is somehow strange to me that Pamela is not among those who are having problems. Tomorrow she will meet her stepfather and her brothers, and her excitement has allowed her to improve her life vastly—she has not had a drink in days. Angela, by the way, knows about the arrangement and is not pleased. She and William have had many arguments in the past week, and though she was invited to the meeting, she will not join her husband and sons. I am sorry for that, but happy that at least some of Pamela’s family are returned to her.
It seems to me, though, that the family tension is simply shifting from one family to another. Morgan is also anticipating a family meeting this weekend, and she is dreading what they will say to her. She will not have Brooke with her, and she is nervous about the encounter.
Meanwhile Jesse is nervous about his plans for Ramona, and Myrtle and Jaquinn have had another fight, and Charlotte continues to feel depressed—I may be spread thin, but how can I leave them alone?
I do admit that I am tired. May the Father-King give me the strength I need to help these dear people.